Curiosity Killed The Cat

I watched Toni's Jake Zyrus interview and I identified with Jake's experience and story a lot. I found it so insightful that it also made me ask myself if I'm being truthful about who I am, for not making the decision to transition.  Skipping the wordy introductions, here's a rundown:  Name: J  Age: 34  Gender identity: Lesbian (unexpressed Transgender)  I always thought, when I was growing up, that I would, one day, become more like my father than my mother (physically). When I was young I did not question the idea that one day I will become a man. I was assured at the idea that one day, my body will go through changes that will fit how I identified myself. Whenever I imagined myself in the future I imagined a male character - a male doctor, painter, astronaut and all the other things I wanted to be when I grew up.  Over time, the idea obviously disappeared and it was replaced with a considerable amount of constant disappointment and anxiety (from others a...

Every few years, you will find yourself wandering about on the internet and will wonder... "Is that blog still up?" and you'll find this - this time capsule where you leave tidbits of who you are every time you find yourself back here. NOTE to self: Never leave a love letter here. It's f***ing cringy AF (that means as fuck - in case you forget at the time you're reading this) At least that's how I felt when I read the last love letter I left here (today). So I ended up deleting our only footprint from that time (I even forget to take note of the year before deleting, but I think it was 2013?). So never leave a love letter. 1. No one reads this - only you read your own stuff. So don't leave anything cringe-worthy. It's not romantic. 2. I don't have a number 2, I just like numbers these days.  So let me tell you about these days. In case you've forgotten: 1. I can type without looking at the keyboard now - touch-typing! (I googled it!) and I...